Never fall in love with anyone!

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I started working in a big city in August 06, 2007, everything became so light for me… i had a good job and very calm envirenment in office i was very happy with my job and position,,, in August 14, 2007 my boss intreduced me with my co-worker and that was our first time that we met, our works had related with each other, coz of works i met him few times and discuss about works… then one day he asked me for my Email add and i gave him my MSN ID as well my Yahoo ID he add me coz i was in first floor of my office and he was in 3rd floor then we chat everyday and solve the office works then he requested me to be his friend i was very confused but after trying so i decided to became his friend, i accept his friendship and we were very happy and during office works we were also chating i was very happy with this relation that i have found a friend like him, one day he said I LOVE U i really became shocked and i didnt knew what to do then i told him what r u saying? we r friends and how u can say like this to me… he said ya i really love u and i want u to be my gf i became quit and didnt talked with him for some days… even i was not talking with him but i did always thought about him in every moments when i was eating, sleeping…. just wanted to think about him nothing else… then one day i decided to tell him that i also became fall in love with him i wanted to say that i also love u, after trying so i called in his cell and he picked the phone and the words that i wanted to say for him was i also love u very much and finally i said for him that i love u very much……….. he was very happy, on that day he said to me it’s right that i really love u but sorry that i cannot marry you i told him how you love me? that you cannot marry me he said no i have some problems and my problem is this that i am belongs to some one else from childhood my family wants me to marry with some one else i said ok fine then we were good friends of each other and during of our friendship we had Kisses & Hugs, even on that i was just his friend but whenever he wanted to talk about some other girls i just wanted to die and wanted to cry but i did suffer and one day he said that i will engage with that girl whom my family wants then i fight with him and said ok as u wish whatever u want to do in ur life dont talk with me anymore then he come back office and he wore a engagement ring and i thought he engaged but all was lie he didnt enagege then i told him that why u said lie to me that u did engage he said coz of our better life, he said i really love u but cant marry u but till end i did never say for him that come and marry me, i wanted to be a good friend our friendship goes on and again we were happy and we were friend but just i had one request from him always that plz do not try to say for anyone about our relation but i dont know how every body knew about us, and they said for everyone else that they have physical relation with each other and everybody looked on me in a very bad way on that day i wanted to leave office forever but some of my good friends say plz dont do like this everything will be allright…. then one day someone told me that he was the only one that he share ur relation with everyone every moments every night i cried alot and i just wanted to bury my self that what was my sin that he did like this with me and i was not talking with him for a long time (6 Months), then one day again he add me in his massanger and wanted to chat with me but i said for him if u really want me to die then come and kill me why u r not leting me to be alife he said no i just want you to be happy and i want u to be just my best friend i dont want anything else, then i said whenever u can share our relation with everyone then how u want my happiness he swear to his mom that till now i didnt say for anyone all is lie and u r always my best friend then again we became friends and we chat everyday even we were good friend of each other again but he did always tried to make me sad he wanted to talk about others and wanted to bother me alot but i really loved him therefore i suffer everything… one day we were fighting another day we were talking this relation became very boaring for him as i think, but i did always tried to do whatever he want as i told him i can do anything coz of ur happiness but he did never knew that how much i love him and will love him forever he did never loved me truly but he was the first and last guy in my life that i loved him, love him, and will always love him…. during our relation i gave him one gift from my side and he also gave me one gift which i really love and will always keep it with my self as my life but i think my gift was just like a toy for him… anyhow i tried to do not tell him anymore that how much i love him… one day at the morning i was very happy and i came to office he called me and we talked with each other for a long time then also we chat and by mistake i did say something wrong for him and he mind and said that do not interfare in my personal life, that day was the last day of our friendship, on that day he decided to finish this relation forever and he did, but i dont think so that i did say that much wrong for him that became finish our friendship now as i think he was bored with this relation and wanted to finish this relation for ever, then again i sms for him and apologize that sorry i did mistake but he didnt replied me as well and the other day when he came to office and come to online he said to me that u know better that i cant get u and u cant get me therefore i want u to make ur better life then i got what he want to tell me i said ok if u dont want to be my friend anymore then fine i also said for him that be happy in ur life and have a good life bye…….. but no one knows what i felt on that time my heart became really hurt and i decided that will never love anyone this much…..

but i really loved him, love him, and will always love him….

plz do not try to became fall in love with anyone bcoz when heart breaks then will never make it again!!!

In my life I learned how,

2 love, 2 smiles, 2 b happy, 2 b strong,

2 work hard, 2 b honest, 2 b faithful, 2 forgive.

But I couldn’t learn how 2 forget him…

what i want from u all is this that till now we r working in same depatment and i’m seeing him everyday if u can guide me plz that would be very nice what to do coz when i am seeing him i rememebred my past….