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it was august 10th 2007. I was super self conscious because it was our last day of band camp and i was sunburnt and my hair was tied up into a messy pony tail and i just felt disgusting. After 5 days of being in the sun all day my skin was fried, my lips were chapped, and i was tired and ready to go home.I had a boyfriend back at home and we were going out for two weeks. But the sad thing was i didnt miss him at all and my heart wasnt into it. The only reason i ended up really saying yes was because people kept saying i should give it a chance since he waited for me for so long. but our relationship was super awkward and strange, we couldnt even talk normally anymore. During band camp i decided that i was going to break up with him the second i got back. I knew what i was going to say and what i would do. I wasnt happy and i couldnt take it anymore.ANYWAYWe all got to the airport and some of my friends were sitting in the grass near a short rock wall area. So I strolled over there to sit with them but this boy was sitting next to my friend and we dont usually hang out together. Ive known the boy since 7th grade but ive never really talked to him. However, i really wanted to sit with my friends so i asked him to scoot over and i plopped down next to him and my friends.FLIGHT # 2, WERE ENTERING THE AIRPORT! so we got our things ready and i said goodbye to my friends that were on flight 3 and it turned out that the boy was on flight 2 as well. His friend had already left on flight 1 so we ended up getting in the airport lines together. we made some small talk about how we would spend our time with the remaining summer and how it sucked that school would be starting in a few weeks. We got through the examination lines and then hit the boarding area so we were just lounging around. I ended up sitting with him and his trumpet section even if my flute section was gathered around in a corner of the airport. It was weird because i felt comfortable with him but ive only met him about an hour ago. Even if it was weird i went along with it and we sat together and talked to each other about things that didnt really matter but were said just for the sake of small talk.Finally we boarded the airplane and i was just about to tell him that he was welcome to sit with me when he sat down next to me anyway. I felt a huge smile creeping on to my face and i had to slap myself just to keep myself from looking like a stupid idiot. I mean, i didnt even like this guy, i barely knew him! [ i had a boyfriend back home even if i was going to break up with him] He had these beautiful big brown eyes that made me smile everytime i looked into them and i didnt know why. I just felt so comfortable with him and that i could fly and do anything. PFT i didnt even like him. He started dozing off to sleep and i wanted to let him sleep on my shoulder but it would have been weird because i just met him and we werent going out.we got back home and got off the plane. i got my luggage and said goodbye, that ill see him at school. i never stopped thinking about it after that.i broke up with my boyfriend and i knew he was mad at me. whatever; i was happy.i started talking to the boy from the airport over aim. We started developing a lot of inside jokes and the more i talked to him the more i felt a friendship forming. thats all i felt just a friendship. But then i saw him at school on the day we went to go buy books and take yearbook pictures and i fell for him so hard and so fast. i knew that i liked him even if i didnt want to and i knew that i couldnt stop myself from caring about him.We planned a back to school beach bash and i invited him to it. He probably wouldnt come since he doesnt know ANY of my friends. So we went our beach bash and he didnt show till the last two hours. He got flu shots and was extremely tired and sore but he ended up coming anyway. we talked a little bit about school and everything that would be coming up and i felt super comfortable with him. i couldnt stop thinking about it, how happy i was that he showed up. i couldnt stop thinking that maybe he had some sort of feelings for me too since he came even when he wouldnt be comfortable. i was in too deep now, i liked him way too much. but i couldnt tell him because i knew that i would get my heart broken.School started and he was in my english class but it was a lot different at school because we didnt see each other as often and we didnt talk as much. One day i was on aim and a freshman kid in his trumpet section sends me an instant message and asked me if i liked that boy to which i replied yes. I was talking to the boy at the same time too and i asked him who he liked and he said that he didnt know if he liked her as a friend or as more. So i figured, he doesnt like me my life sucks. but then the freshman kid said that he definetely has feelings for me but he doesnt know if he wants to risk the friendship. So i talked to the boy because we both know that were talking to the mutual freshman kid. he replies with we definetely have to talk about this in person later. it was an ohshit im going to get rejected moment.days passed and we talked about everything but our subject. He told me that he needed time to think so i gave him time. i didnt push for anything, i didnt expect anything, i thought i was going to get rejected anyway.August 28, 2007.after all that stalling i finally knew that he liked me and he knew that i liked him. only problem was we couldnt talk about what we were going to do. After sitting together awkwardly for about an hour he finally asked me out to which i replied id love to.This boy changed my life. weve only been together for almost 3 months but weve been through more than other couples. hes been there for me in my hardest times and when im sad and i tell him that im sorry for bringing him down he always tells me it doesnt matter because the only thing he wants to see is me being happy. If i tell him that i feel fat, hell tell me that he loves me just the way i am or that im beautiful. hell stay up with me till 4 in the morning to talk on the phone even if he has to get up early the next day. if were at band rehearsal and i dont have water hell buy me water and bring it for me. When i felt like i was fat, he gave me a piggy back to prove that i wasnt. When i needed help with my math homework he stayed up on the phone with me to make sure i understood everything, even if he was really tired.This boy means the world to me now. I didnt know what love was before. but now i do. its being with the one that wants to be with you. to care for someone more than you do yourself. our relationship is strong and getting stronger each day. i know that well be together for a long time, not just because i want us to be theres nothing i want more but because he wants it too.i know what love is because of him. he was my first kiss, my first true love.im only almost sixteen but i found my other half, my highschool sweetheart.he makes me smile like ive never done before ill remember these memories for the rest of my life.baby i love you.august 28, 2007 always forever &lt ;3

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